I really enjoy the tv show
Leverage. Here's a quote that stands out from season 2 episode 2 when Eliot, the hitter, is required to lose a fight.
Sophie: Look, you told me that it's about control, about knowing that you're never going to be the victim. And that's what keeps you going, right?
Eliot: You think I'm upset 'cause I got to let this guy kick my ass? I learned a long time ago, you can't control the violence. I can take the punishment. That's what I do. What I need to control is not out there. It's here (patting heart). Always.